sad as always . D'=

will anyone be able to find this blog before i pass on ? i couldnt get my singing dreams come through so whats the point of being alive on this earth? i've always wanted to be able to sing songs of praise, love, friendship in which it relates to my life like some famous singer (taylor swift-though she is a country music singer , all of her songs always relates to her current or past time living on this earth. which is really meaningful and touching. i sometimes even cry while listening to songs online [as i cannot afford the time and money to go to her live concert][no matter where she is]. her songs are just so true and while listening to her songs, my problems just fade away so quickly. she's just like a personal counsellor/therapist to my life. listening to her songs always helps me to get through any difficulty im facing no matter where i am in this dreadful journey of mine) tired of all of this craps im listening to , tired of all this nonsensical things im facing with and tired of this lonely life of mine. i just wish to end it right now but i can't , how long am i suppose to go on like this ? who knows maybe tomorrow instead of me being in school having my exams i maybe in the hospital ? who will miss me ? who will not? will he tell me he loves me before it is too late? or will he not ? so many questions poping in my head right now ? what should i do OR what AM i suppose too do ? {confused }

with love ,
little princess♥